29.12.08
9.12.08
Timely Realization.
-"That's because history starts to come in..."
from "Eloge de l'amour" (2001, Jean-Luc Godard)
2.12.08
Christmas in Old Town.
Sorry I started filming the first video a little too early. The tree does light up halfway through, I promise.
30.11.08
My oh My. Apple Pie.
27.11.08
Bird Search.
Cassie and I left elated. We had never encountered such nice service in Prague. The fact that the one woman left her own work to come and translate for us is an incredibly uncommon occurance, one which we have had yet to occur until today. And perfect timing- on the day we Americans give thanks. So to the employees of the anonymous butcher shop- thank you for your help and thank you for your bird.
Thanksgiving Blog Entries to be continued...
17.11.08
Revolution.
Today marks the 19th anniversary of the Velvet Revolution in the Czech Republic. The Czech Republic, as well as other countries in Eastern Europe, recognize this day as their freedom from communism. Up until 1989, communism ruled in the Czech Republic since 1968.
Just a fun fact for today.
12.11.08
Beauty in the End.
9.11.08
Lost...and not found.
The following is a list of the things I have managed to lose while overseas:
1. Vodaphone- on a Prague Art&Architecture walk; cost of a new phone? 1100 czk.
2. My beautiful amber ring from Chesky Krumlov (aka- the ring my granddaughter was one day going to wear)- Berlin hostel;
3. My mittens- at Claire's cousin Oliver's house in Ireland. I guess I can always get these back?
4. Prague Moleskin- didn't actually lose this, but for a good 10 minutes I thought I did.
5. Favorite Clemson long-sleeve tshirt- Galway hostel; great, now I have to go donate more blood to get another one! just kidding.
6. Backing to my diamond earring- walking out of a restaurant.
7. Bobby pins- I can to Prague with a lot; now I have four?
8. Blow dryer- I didn't lose this, but I fried it the other day. Good move Kelly.
9. Eyeliner pencil- I know right? The worst one of all!
I'm sure I could add more, but now I've annoyed myself thinking about these mishaps.
16.10.08
In Memory.
photo credit: William Alquin Granberry
26.9.08
-Charging- Power up.
I had every intention of visiting the *free* Czech Museum of Fine Art this afternoon. But surprise surprise, I found myself lost. And where is that oh so special place that one somehow always manages to end up at when they are lost? That's right. Old Town Square. It never fails. Normally I am frustrated and annoyed by this pattern, but today the square provided me with the revival I needed. My awakening? The Salvador Dali exhibition. It's one that I've wanted to stumble into since I arrived here (though, mind you, I knew little about Dali other than his surrealist melting clocks), and today I finally decided to drop the 70 czk to go in. It was well-worth the koruna (moulah), because I found myself challenged by his work. In order to obtain any message, you have to expand your mind and think. As with all art, each person that looks at a work can grasp a completely different meaning. It's as if Dali was allowing me into the creative process. As homesickness set in the past couple of days, so has discouragement about why I chose to come to an unfamiliar place, and not only that, but on my own. But like I said, Dali's work brought me relief today. It is reminding me that I am looking at this experience too concretely. I'm fixated with the things that are making my days here so standard. I need to look deeper. There is so much more to this city than I'm seeing on the surface (school, Bohemia Bagel, unhappy tram riders, Tesco...). I need to search for that alternative essence- I need to feel Prague in ways I haven't already done. I need to discover the obtuse and trust it. I have the opportunity of a lifetime to make Prague my own. So it's time I set the ordinary aside, and start repainting this picture.
Today was arguably the most beautiful day I've experienced in Prague yet. While we had many a nice day when I first arrived, those days brought along heat. After leaving the exhibit, feeling newly awakened, I walked down to overlook the Vltava River. I sat down and sketched the scene a bit (mind you, I'm not artist, but I tried). I then proceeded to walk the couple of miles home, paying close attention to details I seem to pass over on a day-to-day basis. I watched people more closely, I wandered up alleyways, I read posters (well, sort of. They were in Czech). I payed attention to decorative details on buildings and restaurants. I stumbled into a bookstore...
And finally, my day has come to an end, at almost 6 in the morning, having just come home from watching the Presidential Debate. A new favorite hangout, The Globe, broadcasted the debate from a movie screen beginning at 3 this morning. It was a unique atmosphere, probably the most non-CEA Americans I've been around since my arrival. The majority of the room were clearly Obama supporters, though a few drunk Republicans managed to voice their stance. Coffee was served, hence why I'm wide awake and blogging at this atrocious hour, as was popcorn (?). Allie and I took the metro home at 5, where it was reiterated that Pragians (my word) are crazy and don't ever sleep. At 5, the train was comfortably filled with people, some of which had shopping bags. Shopping bags!? Where do you shop in the early a.m.!? Oh well, you gotta love it.
Endnote: to anyone reading this that has sent me a message, whether via email, skype, or facebook, in the past few days, thank you so much. It meant a lot to hear from each of you and helped me feel better. You're loved so much, so much!
25.9.08
Drugs.
I went to the UniCare Medical Center today in Prague to be told that I have bronchitis. I was given five different types of medicine, all for different aspects of the illness. When I opened up the description pages, what do you know, they were all written in Czech. I know I don't have anything to be worried about...CEA has been using this medical facility for years. Still, there is an uneasiness about the unfamiliarity that I have with these brands, and what they contain, though I'm certain I could find their comparison in the United States.
For the first time, I'm actually wanting to take the time out to read the descriptions on these things. Too bad, for the first time, I don't have the opportunity to do so.
I know these are all weird thoughts to post via-blog, but sitting looking at all my meds spread out on the table, I couldn't help myself.
23.9.08
Expectancy Violations.
17.9.08
Slavia v. Sparta
Two nights ago CEA got us tickets to a Slavia v. Sparta hockey game. Wouldn't you know that hockey is one of the Czech Republic's most popular sports? They really spoiled us with front row seats. I've only been to a few hockey games, none of which were professional, in my life, so this was a fun experience.
The majority of us cheered for Sparta, though Slavia was the home team. We had heard from Marty, one of our CEA Directors, that Sparta was the better team. However, they unfortunately lost to Slavia 2-1.
This by far has been my favorite element to see the Czech people in. There was drunken commraderie gallore, family togetherness, friendship bonding time- it was great. It was as though everyone's problems were left at the door, and everyone in the areana was there to have a good time.
Two things I particularly noticed during my time at the game. The first being the lack of on-ice fighting. At home, I feel like it's a rare occurance not to see two players go at it at some point during the game. However, I saw not one glove come off, no helmets on the ground, and certainly no punches thrown. If ever an altercation, a brief yelling session insued, but then it was game on.
The other thing I noticed was the dedication of each team's fans to their team. No matter whether a team was messing up left and right or making clean passes down the ice, their respective fans were behind them through it all, cheering them on. And even though Sparta lost in the end, you could still hear Sparta cheers down in the metro tunnels as the train pulled away. Talk about true fans.
So, I'll conclude with brief footage of the atmosphere:
15.9.08
Easy on a Sunday Morn'.
I've always been in love with fall Sundays, but Prague Sundays are topping them all. We had a rapid temperature drop over the past two days- literally from 75 to 50-something degrees. The air has been pleasantly brisk- slightly cheek stinging if you will. This morning I wrapped my neck in a scarf and met some friends at Bohemia Bagel. We sat for almost three hours, drinking bottomless coffee and listening to great oldies music as we kept conversation flowing. We later walked out into the cold, still air. Claire and I lost Kelly and Kiernan among the tourist flood on the Charles Bridge, but we continued to walk anyway, passing musicians, artists, and vendors. I fell in love, again, with the city's beauty. I love how the buildings here all vary in color, but not in a cutesy way like the ones in Charleston, SC. Each building here seems to bring something unique to the panorama- each has a different personality, a different story to tell.
We walked down to this island park to sit and read for awhile, but it got too cold. We decided to walk the two miles back home instead of taking the tram. It was a rare moment of total relaxation and contentment- I felt like I was the city and the city was truly mine. A man passed us on a penny-farthing bicycle. I gave him a thumbs-up and his face smushed up as he gave me a closed-mouth smile.
I have now returned to my apartment, where I have made myself some green tea and cozied up in one of our big armchairs. Everything peaceful about today I am counting as a blessing.
Later in the evening, after this entry was written, one of my roommates and I walked down to Tesco to get our groceries for the week. If I am to be honest, Tesco is the one place in Prague where I have sadly experienced truly unfriendly Czechs. Everytime we've gone in there, the cashiers have rolled their eyes at our lack of Czech, forcefully shoved our groceries aside (in the Czech Republic you bag your own groceries), and have gotten very angry when you don't have enough change to allow them to just give you bills back. It's frustrating.
Anyway, the great moment. Last night's cashier was actually pleasant! Now, when I say pleasant, that is not to say that she was actually nice, but that she gave us a small smile and even bagged some of my groceries for me. When I explained that I didn't have enough change for her to just give me bills back, she didn't seem offended at all. I said thank you and goodnight and we were on our way- completely taken aback. Allie and I were so excited that we literally talked about it all the way home.
Apparently one of the reasons that the Czech people don't typically smile while interacting with strangers is that they lack a certain self-confidence. They can't even imagine why a perfect stranger would want to smile at them. Interesting, that in the United States we sometimes are overly smiley and overly nice to strangers- sometime so much that it can come across as fake.
13.9.08
It's Astronomical.
Friday morning, however, me and two of my roommates did reach our destination successfully- not that it was that hard considering it is right next to school. We went to look at the John Lennon Wall. Basically, it is a big graffiti wall, started as a memorial after Lennon's death in 1980, where the Prague youth spoke their minds in regard to political issues facing what was then Czechoslovakia. Obviously, the wall has changed several times since the eighties, as graffiti has covered graffiti, but here is an idea of what it looks like today:
Notice a sculpture of Lennon's head in the top left corner:One of the persisting jokes lately is the fact that no matter where you are attempting to go in Prague, somehow you always end back up at Old Town Square. I guess if the city had a center, this could very well be it, as it is the location of several of Prague's biggest attractions including the Astronomical Clock. Every hour, thousands of tourists seem to gather in front of this clock to watch as the figures around the clock move, each representing a different thing that was despised during the time of the clock's making: greed, vanity, death, and infidel Turks (yeah, this one doesn't seem to fit with the others). You can also watch the 12 apostles move about on the hour as well.
This to me is one of the craziest things that I walk by almost daily, mostly due to the fact that the oldest part of the clock was built in the early 1400s:
Yesterday, Allie and I wound up in New Town and stopped to look at a photo exhibit that was randomly displayed on the street. Nearby was this building, from which you could hear somebody playing piano from the top left window.
Now, there's no way of telling, but I got the impression the hidden player was an elderly widow woman, who now seeks comfort through her music. Just a guess, of course. Something about the choppiness of "her" playing made it so beautiful and intriguing. I could have sat and listened to "her" attempt to play Cannon all day.
Today was by far the coldest day we've had in Prague. It was a brisk 50 something-degree day, which I couldn't have been happier about. Finally, it is appropriate to wear all those sweaters I stocked up on coming here!
9.9.08
Peace and War.
Yesterday I added another day to my already four-day weekends when I dropped Reporting I. The class was essentially what I had already taken at Clemson (Intro to Journalism), so instead they signed me up for an independent study. Each month, I will be writing a 500-600 word piece for The Prague Post, Prague's English language newspaper. I will meet with an advisor at school who will help in the editing process, but other than that I don't have class. I will be specifically covering non-profit organizations and events that they are hosting. Each month I will feature a different organization. I sort of feel lazy with now a five-day weekend, but what is a girl to do? The experience of writing for the paper will be great, and it will give me more travel time, so I can't complain.
A couple of nights ago our apartment decided to cook for some of the other CEA kids. I decided to make my dad's infamous pasta (sauteed spinach, zucchini, squash, tomato, garlic and then throw in feta cheese), however, the Tesco (wal-mart but way better and bigger) didn't help me out much. Vegetables are one of the most expensive items here because they are not a big part of a Czech's diet. Not only that, but it is not uncommon to go the store and find that they are sold out of vegetables. When trying to find things at the store, we were sad to discover that they were out of tomato, zucchini, and squash. So, we improvised and used peppers, onions, and a bag of other frozen vegetables instead. We also found some really cheap red wine for about 28 czk, which is under $2- kind of pathetic, I know. It was so cheap it later made our mouths turn blue.
The only other thing to really report on is what took place in my Media & Democracy class on Monday. We had a guest speaker come in and talk to us about freedom of the press, particularly in the United States, as well as its relationship with the current war situation. She is an American- a freelance journalist and author of some political books. To set the stage, we have a pretty international class: United States, Russia, Kazakhstan, South Africa, France, and the Czech Republic. What first bothered me was her vagrant disrespect for some of the non American students. When she asked one girl her name, the speaker attempted to say it correctly once before she said "Uh, whatever, close enough-" as if to say getting the girl's name right wasn't important. Further, though I tend to have more liberal views myself, this speaker made her hard-core liberal views come across as 100% fact without even suggesting there was another side. Then, she pretty much deliberately put the class against each other, asking each of us if we thought there was a war going on in the world, how much independence should the media be given, and then asked our opinions on issues like Prague being the radar base for Poland's missals and the Russian/Georgian conflict. The Russian was mad at the Czechs, France didn't really say anything, nobody liked us Americans- it was sort of an uncomfortable mess. I guess what bothered me the most was her aggressiveness. I feel like there is a much more subtle way, if you want to engage an internationally-diverse class in a world issues debate, than putting everyone on the defense. Further, this was the first time I've really been surrounded by such an international crowd as ours, and while it was frustrating on Monday, I think I will come out of this class with a greater reassurance of the need to be culturally tolerant of others.
Anyway, that's all from Prague for now!
6.9.08
Ahoj from Praha.
I've talked to many who already know the early details of my time here, but for those who don't, I will summarize some facts of interest:
1. My apartment is located in Prague 5- the Smichov district to be exact. We are on the top floor of an old building, whose spiral staircase gives my legs quite a daily workout. The apartment has a "Snow White-esque" to it, but the best part is the view from our balcony of the east side of the city.
2. I have three other roommates. We are all from different parts of the country, which makes it an enjoyable learning experience for all of us.
3. My school, Anglo-American University, it located in the Mala Strana district. This is one of my favorite sections of the city. Google image it? Almost right next to school is a restaurant called Bohemia Bagel which we are all in love with. They serve American food all day long. Best is their big bagels because they are only 11 czk each (less than $1). This has become a common hangout spot for us CEAers.
4. Prague is most certainly a nightlife city. It NEVER sleeps. I think it may be in part because Europeans eat dinner later (typically 8, 9, maybe even 10 pm). At 3am people young and old are still out on the streets having fun. It's crazy. Needless to say, it's been hard to get a good amount of sleep.
This morning, a bunch of us ventured off on a train for Kutna Hora- located south of Prague. The train traveled through some beautiful, quiet countryside before we reached this small foothills town. Our mission- find the bone church. Or rather, the Klosnice Ossuary. This church, on the inside, is made almost entirely of human bones. Reason being? After the church was first built, a monk brought back soil from Jerusalem and sprinkled it over the churchyard. When this occurred, everyone wanted to be buried in the church's cemetery. Even after an expansion years later, there wasn't enough room for the bodies. So, a half-blind Christian monk began taking the dead's bones and artistically decorated the church with them. Observe:
After we walked through the church, we went upstairs to the other chapel where we were pleasantly surprised to find a violin quartet. After hearing them, I think my appreciation for classical music has strengthened.
The rest of the day was spent walking through this city. It was a good 30-minute walk from the church into town in the boiling heat, but it was worth it. The best way I can describe it is a "Po-dunk town" European-style- if that makes sense? I guess what I mean by European style is that the buildings, though run-down, were still in that pretty-historic architecture (Corey, can you think of a better way to describe this?) We found a little oasis in an alley, a restaurant called Vruthardce. To enter, you walked through a "Secret Garden-like" archway, into a garden/lawn area with exotic looking flowers. We sat at a long bench where we enjoyed a meal of string cheese, bread, and beer/RC cola (pending on who you were). It was all very quaint and relaxing. Today, I was in love with Europe. Riding home on our beat-up train, all of us in and out of sleep, watching as we passed other small towns and countryside, I realized I enjoy this side of Europe the most. I'm not sure why, but the unexpectededness of being outside a famous city, like Prague, makes it all seem more real. I'm truly thankful to be here this semester.
25.8.08
On the Ride.
I paid particular attention to smells tonight. I breathed in honeysuckle as I passed through my neighborhood entrance, only to be greeted by the smell of summer grilling on Main Street. Later, as I would wrap back around on my way home, that grilling smell made way to the similar, but slightly varied, bonfire smell, as if to symbolize the fast-approaching presence of autumn in the valley. "Smell" has always been a weird sense to me- how it has the ability to capture a memory, or lure us further into something. Or further away.
As I passed by the old homes on the backstreets, I noticed the height of each home's fencing. Compared to the newer homes in town, the fences of these older homes were shorter, evoking what I felt was a truer sense of community. These days, it's as though we want to keep ourselves gaurded inside our homes. Porches have moved from the front of the house to the back, and fences have been raised higher, blocking out noise, people, etc. It shows how much more willing people were back in the 1700/1800s (yes, these homes go back that far) to welcome others into their homelives. I appreciate this so much and am saddened to think we've become so comfortable with the Tim Taylor/Wilson neighbor interaction. If I ever fence my yard, it will be short. And you can come sit on my front porch and shoot the breeze any day! But no creepers, please.
I also got enjoyment out of the people I saw tonight. There was an old man sitting on his front porch (old home) doing nothing but smiling. He wasn't looking at anything in particular- he just remained fixed in a closed-mouth grin. All the firefighters were sitting outside the firehouse, laughing and enjoying each other's company. I saw an old classmate skateboarding and rode down to the school campus and watched the varsity girl's soccer play in a scrimmage. As a team alumnae, that was thrilling for a few minutes. There were a lot of families out tonight too- most riding bikes actually. And, I saw a kid rollerblading, which immediately made me consider initiating a trade- my bike for his skates.
Anyway, it never ceases to be a refreshing evening in Middletown.
21.8.08
Totally.
I regret that the summer months have been lowly, as far as blogging is concerned. But then again, is that not the point of these dog days? That this rare time be given to the mind to slow and regain some sense of dignity- some clarity?
In the past month, possibly inspired by my upcoming trip, I've become re-acquainted with an old learning passion. I've spiraled back in time to World War II, the Holocaust, and all that led up to the Cold War, in first attempts to try and understand these events at a more mature level.
In lieu of these studies, as well as the current Russian/Georgian conflict, I will seek to discover the tick- the tick that makes totalitarian rule so appealing in the eyes of certain individuals. Also, how this dangerous yearning has such evil capabilities, that in turn takes over whole countries, destroys lives, and leaves survivors scarred for generations to come.
The Czech Republic not only endured Nazi occupation, but immediately following, disappeared behind the Iron Curtain for over 40 years until the Velvet Revolution in 1989. And now, the sad opinion remains among many countrymen that times were better under such harsh rule- no unemployment, less crime, a more stable economy. Living here and interacting with these shaken people should hopefully shed light on what I'm trying to discover.
So again I ask, what is this driving force that seduces man, leaving him to desire totalitarian reign? How is it possible that whole nations are fooled by these masked bullies? Is man really that evil- that deep down each has the capabilities displayed by a select few in our world's history? How much is environmental influence and how much is biological? What are we to do with those people who are left bruised by such reign?
May these answers come.
25.7.08
This Day in Age.
In tying the above to my premise for writing tonight, I've been reminded a great deal this summer about the importance of living in the present moment. I know, it sounds like a cheesy line sung by a cheesy pop band/singer. Perhaps Vitamin C or some one. But seriously, there is depth to this. I feel like in the past few months I've listened to a lot of people talk about their futures- goals, plans, etc. And I know that I myself, tend to do a lot of this. I like to plan, even if it's all in silliness. I've been reminded that there needs to be a balance. I've tried to be a bit of a realist in that, I understand that you can't just live for the future. I don't want to spend my days so buried in my hopes for what will happen, when there is so much to be enjoyed and so much that is prospering right now. And in living this way, living "in the now," I firmly believe that it is going to make whatever lies in the future that much richer. None of this is to say that it's wrong to look ahead, hope ahead. Just that, again, balance is key- as well as a loose grip on whatever plans our minds are stirring up. Because it is but a rare happening when we are not re-routed, if only slightly, on our continuing journies.
18.7.08
Down on the Farm.
The glamourous life of a stylist's assistant- prop holder and wild pig sitter.
Actually, I wanted to the hold the pigs. They were kind of cute, Wilbur and Little Red.
Yesterday I made "friends" with another parking garage toll employee. I'm sad to say I can't quite remember her name. It was weird- Uma, Oola, Yuma? The name exchange, followed by a handshake, was then followed by unexpected dating advice. She-who-can't-be-named asked me if I was married. When I said no, she preceded to describe several men she regularly sees coming out of the parking garage- down to what they drive and where in the garage they park. She was on a roll, so I kindly nodded and smiled- with an occassional laugh thrown in. I must have been stopped at the booth for a good five minutes...bless her heart.
28.6.08
Recent Conquests.
Scooby (aka- I Poop Everywhere in the House) & "Asthmatic" Arthur (aka- I move a toe and I have the heaviest breathing known to man) Knutson= two weeks of house sitting hell with Anna. Minus a comfy bed and Jon&Kate Plus 8 Marathons.
Anna finished her Lego Eiffel Tower this morning!
26.6.08
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23.6.08
Suits.
Every once in awhile I go downstairs at lunchtime to get a sweet tea and some baked lays. The bald-headed, bearded man typically takes my order. Last week, I was short 30 cents. He let me pay with what I had. Today, when I went downstairs, I fell into a sea of suits. Blue suits. Black Suits. Jacketless Suits. Red ties. Green Ties. Striped Ties. All men, all in suits. From his boat, the bald-headed bearded man threw his life-preserver into the sea and rescued me. He didn't just rescue me - because that in itself would not be a major accomplishment, considering I was a skirt-wearing girl- but actually knew who he was rescuing. He's finally caught on to my routine existence in his eatery. It kind of made me happy.
I was also reminded that I still don't understand what this "real world" is that we have been told to work towards since our youth. This so called "real world" that is supposed to bring us all the happiness and contentment we could want. This "real world" that the suits seem a part of. Because all I saw in this "real world" were mopey, tired faces on what seemed like a lot of overweight bodies. And if this "real world" is supposed to give us happiness and contentment, well...I just didn't see any. Except for brief moments of food-in-mouth. I just don't think I want to be a part of this.
As I left the parking garage this afternoon, I asked the toll man how he was. His response: little lady, each day gets better and better. As I drove off I couldn't help but think, "you're right old sir. you're absolutely right."
By the winding stream we shall lie and dream
We'll make dreams come true if we want them to
Yes all will come play the pipes and drum
Sing a happy song and we'll sing along
Everyone Everyone Everyone Everyone...
22.6.08
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20.6.08
Randos.
Maybe it has to do with distractions? All of the distractions that come with a color photograph- too much going on in the picture at one time. The black and white kind of simplifies the image, enabling the viewer to get to the heart of it quicker. Maybe...
The last couple of days, The Beatles' Let it Be album has been a frequent car companion of mine. I'm not sure why it hadn't hit me until the other day that this album has so much of a country influence. You look at how crazy an album like Sgt. Pepper's was, and it's funny to think Let it Be was a predecessor. I can't remember which song I was listening to the other day, but for some reason this very vivid image passed through my head of The Beatles as an Old-Time band- having a jam session in some run-down, middle-of-nowhere shack. All I could picture was John, sitting on a wooden porch step, tapping his bare foot as he played the banjo or something.
I bought my plane ticket to Prague yesterday, which means I'm officially Czech bound. Unless I acquire some life-threatening something or another over the next month...maybe another fire ant attack? At orientation in April, they told us to only pack about two weeks worth of items. I remember turning to Kristin with an "are they serious?" look, but I decided today that I'm going to listen. The Czech people place a strong emphasis on a simple way of living, and I want to embrace that as much as possible while I'm over there. Not that my lifestyle here is all that lavish, but you know.
'Rents are here. They're good.
And Happy 21st to A&K.
11.6.08
Locavore.
6.6.08
Roads.
It's interesting. Meghan graduated from high school on Tuesday and the memories of my own graduation couldn't help but resurface. I was particularly reminded of the day before graduation. All my friends and I had a picnic at the Middletown Park and I brought along a video camera. We each went around, describing what we would miss most about high school and where and what we saw ourselves doing in a few years. The video had your standard laughter and giddyness: "Hell yeah we're graduating, we're awesome, we're going places...but we're still going to remain tight!" Interesting, again. Because I look at where I am now, and I've only remained close with about three of those people. Not because of falling outs, but because time naturally called us onward. We couldn't fight it, nor did we really try to- we accepted it and embraced our unique transformation through life. Just as we were supposed to. And I like it this way. A lot.
As I've now come to learn, life occassionally brings about about certain people who are meant to stay close. When I think about who those people are in my own life, and how they are spread about various chapters in my life, I'm incredibly thankful. And right now, I'm also enjoying watching my sister discover who her "people" are, and anticipating those she is about to meet. I wish I could tell her how much she is going to change in the next few years, but then again, I wouldn't take the surprise away from her for a second. She's entitled to the same emotions, same learning of lessons, same new encounters as I had before her, except that they will be unique to her. All I plan to do is sit back, smile, and support her.
3.6.08
2.6.08
In Response to K & C.
also, forgot to tell you two. somehow i managed to leave all my makeup in Greenville. i've been mascaraless and eye shadowless for almost a week now. but don't worry. i've managed to borrow some eyeliner from the mom/sister. also, i haven't blow-dried my hair in two days. these are two big accomplishments for me, no?
1.6.08
Bikes. Songs. Bikesongs.
The past few days I've rekindled my love with bike riding. I've been riding my dad's semi-retro 90's mountain bike around Middletown about two/three times a day, and it's been great for the soul. This morning I brought the camera on the solo adventure.
how else have I been passing this time? writing/listening to songs. two songs written. and for some reason, the Beatles' "Revolution 1" has been on repeat today. it's beginning to make me feel a bit dazed.
Why?
Ted Trueblood- outdoor writer. conservationist. Idaho's finest.
28.5.08
A7.
I'm currently sitting in a terminal, headphones in, drinking an Odwalla, and praising God for wireless- all five days too early and not in good spirits.
In books and movies, you see people heading home, after a long-term absence, due to a death or other form of tradegy. I remember thinking how hard that must be, not returning home to a celebratory reunion, but to ceremonial mourning.
I don't do funerals. Call me naive, immature, whatever, but I fear them. They make me angry, make me want to close myself off from the world, as if it's not happening. Because they hurt others, and I can't bear to see others hurting, nor hurting within myself. I realize this may sound awful, but I think anyone would agree that death is not a favored reality check. Still, regardless of how I feel, this is not my time to be selfish. I will return home, support my family and my late uncle. I will face it and be strong. For my dad. For my grandma. For my sisters. And I will rest assure that God's cracked and calloused working hands will emerge once more, to shape something beautiful from something so sad and painful.
Sorry this is so depressing.
23.5.08
All Alone.
19.5.08
5 Miles.
Anyway, I just took part of a conversation regarding passion and activism. The question posed was this: Does it make sense to become part of movement of which you have yet to develop a deep passion, for the sake of wanting to present the movement in an aesthetic, artistic way? Basically, is it wrong to do things backwards- first become part of the movement and then hopefully develop the passion for it along the way.
When it comes to forgiveness, Christianity tells us that we are to forgive, regardless of whether or not we are emotionally compelled to do so. The question posed above sort of resembles this thought process. Shouldn't we be active regardless of whether or not we have a strong passion to be so?
My answer: I do think that passion needs to exist before one becomes active in a movement. Granted, more than passion is necessary for a movement to be successful. For instance, a person cannot allow their passion to bury the inevitable truth that there are going to be obstacles along the way. The person must also be prepared and develop a hard work ethic. Passion is essential though because it tends to act as the emotional stimulus for others. It is passion that brings about more people. It is passion that keeps the creative juices flowing. And it is that passion, if kept in the right perspective, that will help the movement through those obstacles.
The person I was conversing with was feeling impatient, longing to discover a movement that he/she was passionate enough about to start taking action. I'm not a firm believer in "waiting until God lays things in front of you." I believe that you need to be actively searching while actively praying. This is the same situation. To discover the passion, start with smaller, simpler outlets. Establish connections. Have experiences. And along the way, that passion is bound to one day overwhelm you.
You Are Beautiful
http://www.you-are-beautiful.com/
"The reasons why street artists are doing what they are doing, in the way that they are doing, is not simply to question their surroundings; but to provide alternative perspectives, meanings, or values to those of consumerism.Advertising elicits a response to buy, where this project elicits a response to do something. The attempt with You Are Beautiful is to create activism instead of consumerism."
18.5.08
Keowee.
15.5.08
Engagement.
11.5.08
Welcome Home.
I didn't realize how much stuff I had in that small apartment before attempting to move it all out today. I tried as hard as I could to weed through things, making good will piles and such, but still...what an accumulation! There was so much that I "couldn't part with." This leaves me feeling rather uneasy. What the hell do I need it for? I kind of wish I could give it all away and go live among a remote African tribe of some sort.
Anyway, work starts full-time tomorrow, and I'll be back down in Clemson to put even more stuff in storage. Lame Kelly, lame.
I love/miss everyone.
8.5.08
Fried Green 'Maters.
The past week I've been experiencing a weird transitional feeling. School is over. Roommates are leaving, but I haven't. My room is empty except for a bed and things I will be taking to the Samuelson's. Work hasn't started full time. So what's a girl to do?
For starters, I took a trip to Nashville to visit Bailey and Jeff, and I'm still pretty keen on moving there after I graduate. Interesting, the diversity of people you can find in the city. In the two days I was there, I met some fascinating people:
-An old security guard at the Frist Museum. He was an engineering student who dropped out of MIT because he couldn't afford it, finishing off at Vanderbilt. He told Jeff and I we should value the fact that we have a passion for writing because he "sure as hell don't!" He flunked english the first time he took it in h.s.
-Dave, a dobro player who started a bluegrass band in Cookeville,TN. He graduated from ETSU with a psyche degree, lived in Boone for awhile, and was a dedicated skater/snowboarder until one day he turned on the radio and heard a bluegrass song. He was hooked after that, and came back to Nashville (where he grew up) to pursue music.
-Christo, a boy from Iceland whose family is originally from Columbia, South America. He has been couch hopping around the U.S. for awhile and is trying to get down to South America. Bailey's friends wanted him to experience some old time music before he headed down to Florida, so he came with us to her show. I've never seen a person so thankful for any kind of opportunity...his face was illuminating the entire night.
These are just a few, but you get the idea. I decided I want to make it a new goal of mine to start talking to strangers more. This weekend, I particularly noticed Jeff's ability to start a conversation with a random person, only for them to leave knowing a great deal about each other's lives. I think this is an awesome way to learn more about the world, just listening to other people's experiences and having the opportunity to share your own. Something to think about.