Shoebox Full of Photographs and Sepia-Tone Lovin'.

I've been in a Jack Johnson mood all morning. I'm thrilled because these moods always remind me to chill out when I'm stressed and relax. Thanks Jack.

I felt the need to write something non-academic this morning before I spent the rest of my day/life in the lib. I got a fantastic couch chair on the fifth floor. All the way to left by the copy machine where no one can see my computer screen (I don't like feeling guilty when people can see I'm on facebook, or blogging), and I have a great view of downstairs. Two old men are decorating the Christmas tree and adding big-bowed wreaths to front windows. Further, I can lounge my feet out on the table. Nice.

I'm excited to go reject tree hunting Saturday morning. I like the concept of rescuing a homeless tree and making him feel special...doning him in homemade ornaments, stringed popcorn, and tinsel, tinsel, tinsel. We're going for the tacky look this year.
Oh yes, and one more thing. I ate a candy cane yesterday. Therefore, the holiday is coming and I'm excited.

Mr. Yuck.

Recent things that have caused me great disgust:
-organic raspberry vinegrette salad dressing
-my bloodshot eye
-papers, exams, and speeches...oh my!
-Hollywood writer's strike
-our unwashed kitchen floor
-traffic

eh, how trivial these mere annoyances are in the great scheme of life!
Carpe Diem!
Hakuna Matata!
C'est la vie!
Give me liberty, or give me death! ...alright, now I've gone too far. Gee-Knight.

Writer's Block.

Upon the receival of my first diary, age five, I knew I wanted to write. Of course, as all children do, I went through stages where I strayed away from my first love (teacher, marine biologist, actress, dolphin trainer, phyical therapist, interior designer...Titanic expert?) Still, no matter what phase I may have gone through, I always phased out, eagerly running right back to writing. It's one of those things that has remained a stable passion in my life...along with ice cream, the Spice Girls, and eye-liner (HAH, I'm only partially kidding with these).

Therefore, how seriously annoyed and seriously conflicted I find myself, that the thing I want to do more than anything else, the one thing that I am trying to embark on a life-long journey with...the thing that is supposed to be my stablity, is the one thing that is spooning me a current dose of dissonance. It's the one thing that is causing me to pause and take a serious look at where I am right now; and it is quite possibly the one thing that could change the course of these next few years, pending on the decision it guides me to.

Well, Hell. I'm confused.

Note from a 9 year old.

I'm giving Anna free reign of my blog tonight. Let's see what she has to say:

Here is some advice to play a prank on someone:go to youtube.com and type in ghost car and click on the ghost car add and don't let the person see what you are tyeping in and cover the top were it says ghost car add cause then they will see that it is a scary thing then just wait for the fun to begin and the person will think that it is going to be a lovly car but then ahhhhh! A ghost pops up it will scare them a lot. Oh yeah and tell them that you want to show them a really cool car and they will think that it won't be scary but then ATTACK OF THE CIVIL WAR! Next i want talk about Elf a very funny movie "bye buddy hope you find you dad". Yes it is very funny but it can be very sad hold on i need a moment.........ok sorry i was just crying. Now the moment you'v been wating for its Soilja Boy Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Soilja boy up in the oh watch me crank it watch me oh so why do you crank the soilja boy why do you crank that soilja boy! My friend Brandon taught me that! Finally I LOVE REGINA SPEKTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Anna

Oh the innocence of children. It's pretty sad that 4th graders are listening to Soulja Boy. My sister is weird, but I love her.

To Be Thankful.

What am I thankful for this Thanksgiving? My mom and her silly comments. And my dad's ability to make fun of her.
Me- "Mommy, why aren't you more of a domestic mother?"
-"What, would you rather me be sitting around baking pies all day or bettering myself as a human being!?"
In talking about her final project for her design class...
Anna- "Mom, was anybody else's board in the class as nice as yours?"
-"No."
Looking at a decorating magazine in our kitchen...
Dad- "Oh look, the newest word in the decorating world is 'twist.' I guess you'll be using that along with all those other stupid words like 'yummy.'"
- "You just don't understand design lingo. I was in a store the other day and a male designer said 'yummy.' It's just artistic. You have lingo in your field."
Dad- "Yeah. 'pump.'"
- "Oh you know what I mean!"
Dad- "Hey Bridget, guess what!? I sold a yummy pump today!"

Dinner at the Gaudreau's tonight, good time. After 11 years, they really have become family.
Looking forward to a day of shopping tomorrow.

Thunderous Silence.

The same green walls. The same carpet. The same white wooden blinds and the same curtains. The same lonely wicker chair that I've rarely sat in...positioned oh so faithfully in that corner, anticipating the moment when I may, just may, rest in it's curves.

Besides these mundane features, I'm currently in a room that seems like a distant memory. I'm resting in a bed that isn't mine, just recently delivered to the house, and besides that pathetically faithful chair, my furniture is gone, now in my apartment. The odds and ends that I left behind when I went away to school last year are now residing in my closet. There is no noise coming from a television, nothing on the walls to stimulate my mind, there is just silence. A silence that stems from the absence of distraction.

However, within the silence still exists the noise of my mind, the noise being made by my thoughts. What exactly are they saying tonight?

Tonight, they seem to be fixed on the emotions I'm having about being home temporarily. Nine hours away at school, home is such a precious place that I look forward to returning to each time I get the opportunity. I feel like it's such a rare treat to experience the place where I am most myself, the place where I have the closet relationships with the people around me, the place that I make fun of for being small, rural, and boring, yet the place that amazes me with it's natural beauty everytime I venture back. Tonight, I'm bothered by the fact that this is no longer my primary dwelling. With each visit home, it is seeming more like a rest stop, a place to indulge in a much-needed hearty meal, get some much-needed sleep, and visit quickly with a few important people, before heading back to the place that is selfishly trying to take over as my new home. This isn't to say that I'm not happy where I am...it's just becoming more and more of a reality that as time is passing, I'm moving farther and farther away from something that was so wonderfully mine for 18 years (spread between three states, six houses, and three apartments). Again, not to say that just because I'm not at home as often anymore, doesn't mean it isn't my home and doesn't mean I am fully emancipated from it, but there is that realization that I'm growing up and life is calling me onward. It seems like these are thoughts that should have been more prominant last year, going through all the akward freshman changes, but there's something about being off of campus this year and feeling more independent that is bringing about these thoughts in full force.

It's just wierd, wierd, wierd. But nonetheless, I make the most of the time I'm here...this so far includes, but is not limited to, 3 games of CandyLand with Anna, helping mom at 2am with her presentation board, watching Grounded 4 Life with Meggie, my first experience at Noodles & Company (which my grandma couldn't stop calling Oodles and Noodles), and good conversations with Cass and Bri at the Lukey house. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Travelers (No)Rest.

Driving in cars by yourself for long periods of time (aka- road trip home for the holiday) are lonely and can lead to insanity issues.

Nevertheless, it's a good learning opportunity.
(for the record, I'm aware of the clicheness of this entry...the whole attempt to be witty and profound, "omg here are some things I learned...and now I will write a cute little list and attempt to add subtle or blatant humor (your perrogative)." Just thought I'd put that out there.)

-1st and foremost > November 19th is National WIDE LOAD Day.
-I loathe Georgia drivers, especially when they still have a way of sneaking up on you in Virginia
-In order to maintain a sense of classiness, yet still promoting our right to free speech, gas station bathrooms are now equipped with paper for passerbys to write their thoughts on
-Rockin' the Suburbs by Ben Folds will always give me great chuckles
-You should not attempt to take pictures while operating a vehicle on winding mountains
-I may hate Nickelback more than any other band
-Virginia has the most creative landscape architecture when it comes to designing police hide-outs
-Middletown road officials don't seem to care that the speed limit sign on Holter Road still reads "Pee Limit" thanks to what I assume to be the works of a middle school boy with true, artistic ductape talent.

That's all, k bye.